Things have not changed much regarding my moms condition since my last post. Today is day 20 of the hospital. I am beyond frustrated at this point that we don't have a doctor that can help me understand what's happening to her. They say all her labs and tests look better yet she is getting worse. I know God is in control and I have to learn to let him handle everything. I told my husband this morning just pray today that our family gets its "Joy" back. We have been one sad little family for the past few weeks. My heart feels like its been cut open and spread out on the table for everyone to rummage through. I can cry at the drop of a hat and am spending most days doing that very thing when I am not trying to pull it together long enough to make business decisions and keep orders flowing. Forgive me if I have dropped the ball along the way. All I can say is I may drop it a few more times until my mom is no longer suffering and life is not going faster than I can keep up. It's bad when your husband tells you before he leaves for work "Don't come home until you have refilled your blood pressure medicine". I have REALLY dropped the ball where myself is concerned. I think I have been living on Mtn Dew for the caffeine to keep me going. My body is physically tired and my emotions are drained. BUT....I know that things will improve that God is in control and his timing is right, not mine. He will stabilize moms worn body here on this earth and they will move her to a nursing home where we can visit or he will heal her body in Heaven and we will cherish her memory. Either way we have to trust him and know that all we are experiencing is only temporary.
On a brighter note we have started the school year and are excited to see what great things happen this year. We have also celebrated our baby girl turning 10! All double digits at our house. Please continue to pray....we will get through these bumps in the road.
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