Heavy but thankful heart....

As I sit here typing this post, my heart is heavy about a couple of things that have impacted our lives lately.  Sometimes the harsh reality of this world is hard to bare.  We think we have everything under control or we like to think we can control everything, but often that's not the case.  I have to remind myself that God has already mapped out our lives and that he sees the big picture.  What may seem like a burden now, may be a blessing in disguise for down the road.  It is God's protection for us.  I so desperately want to understand and know where I fit into the picture sometimes and have questions that there are no answers to. I want to know why some people seem to have everything when some struggle with everything. I want so desperately to keep my kids from heartbreak...I want to keep my family safe, secure and happy.  But more importantly, I want us as a family to do the right thing,  even when it's the hardest thing ever.  I want my kids to learn valuable lessons earlier than me, I want them to be prepared for this world and I want them to be strong.  I want us to choose the high road and not give up.  Sometimes people in this world can make you have doubts about all of this.  But, I know God is bigger than all of us combined and he sees us and is ready to rescue us. I admit I haven't been having my quiet time with him like I should. I have allowed busyness to come into my mind and heart and this is my wake up call.  I choose to be content with the circumstances that life brings us and I choose to celebrate all that I have to be thankful for.

I am thankful for a wonderful Christmas time with my husband and children...

And, I am thankful for my recovery from foot surgery right after Christmas.  I couldn't do anything without my sweet husband and all his help.  I am blessed and I know that walking with God is the best plan. He will comfort us in days like today when our hearts are heavy and he will reward us when he is ready.  We just have to trust and rely on his promise and other things are insignificant.  We are moving forward and waiting patiently to see what other wonderful blessings and adventures, God has in store for our family.